So far, I can’t say that it’s been all sunshine and roses, that my hair is shiny and I feel wonderful every day. On Day 1, I wrote the following notes:

I want to curl up inside a warm, soft piece of naan and eat my way out.

I’m shaking. Why am I shaking? I’m not cold.

I want my Mommy.

I thought I’d have more thoughts than that after the first day, but as my stomach was empty, my brain was, too. And that’s pretty much how it continued for the first three days. I shivered. I cried. I was cranky. Whole30 isn’t about portion control, at least not at first, so on Day 2 I sat quietly at the dinner table, long after the kids had cleared their plates, and ate 3 cups of cubed, boiled sweet potato. Plain. No salt, no butter, nothing. I wasn’t sure what I was doing, and I knew it didn’t feel right, but there was a hole in my heart where my carbs used to live, and I needed to fill it.

I anticipated the misery, though. I knew I’d miss my red wine, my cheese platters and my luxurious desserts. But even though we’re only 12 days in so far, there have been some really big revelations, too. The hubby and I both have noticed a significant uptick in our energy levels throughout the day, and because of the Whole30 rules we’re packing our lunch every day, which we don’t always do because of our harried mornings. We also have realized how heavily we depended on dairy, frequently adding cheese to dishes that really just don’t need it. Our eggs, for example, which we’ve always bought cage-free and organic, are rich and flavorful on their own, even without the usual tablespoon of milk and shredded cheese that we used to add. We also have already realized how many carbs we consumed in a day, from the bagel breakfasts, bread on our sandwiches at lunch, and giant plates of pasta we might eat over the course of a day. Guess what? Food can taste good without carbs and dairy! Who knew?

Today’s Whole30 compliant recipe is a simple breakfast scramble, variations of which have made frequent appearances on our table in the mornings since we started this crazy thing. I roast or boil cubed sweet potatoes the night before and slice up the chicken apple sausage beforehand so that it’s easy to throw together in the mornings. I find that eating a healthy portion of this scramble fills me up and gives me good energy through lunch, which cuts down on the snacking that Whole30 encourages you to steer away from. The subtle sweetness of the chicken and apple sausage really complement the sweet potato, and it feels like a well-rounded, colorful way to start the day.

Of course, if I’m really feeling peckish (i.e., hangry), sometimes I’ll sob-eat a half an avocado drizzled with lemon, olive oil and salt. I want to love Whole30. I really do. And I think I will, in the end. I just have to get there.

Join me, will you?